I got the routine back that i was craving with the kids going back to school today – and mainly i just feel exhausted as a result 😉 It was brutal getting up at 6.20am today. And work is busy but i was struggling to get motivated or stay focused.

Foodwise was fine – three healthy moderate meals and a banana after dancing.

Exercise was fine – i went to my dance class and then did a 15 minute exercise video from my 14 day fitness challenge.

I’m slightly worried about my reasons for this though – i feel really really unfit right now and I’m not exercising alcoholically or anything. But i know my weight is niggling me. I’ve had 3 weeks of eating well and 1 week of exercising regularly and I know I’ve not gained, but I don’t think i’ve lost anything either. I’m not going near the scales though. I can just tell from my clothes.

I’ve just written down my Step Two (that will be another blog) about my hope and trust and faith in the programme and that how if i believe in connecting with spiritual resources then i should become the person i want to be.

in OA they say “focus on your abstinence and you’ll lose weight; focus on your weight and you’ll lose your abstinence.” So with my HP as the programme and OA support groups, I’m going to trust the process and shut my negative thought processes down.