I’m going to restart the steps with my sponsor, so decided to go to the canteen today and do some reading about Step One out of the Sober without God book. I didn’t like any of the choices at the canteen and chose something that seemed to be the best option but was disgusting! I started to feel resentful that now I’m on an eating plan, when one of those meals is horrible, i feel cheated. So instead of staying stuck in that thought, i logged on to an OA meeting at 1pm which was about abstinence. Timely – as always.

After that, i had no bad thoughts all afternoon. I used an OA tool and it worked. How surprising!

I like the language in the Jeffrey Munn book and find it easier to understand and relate to. Step One he describes as “Admitted we were caught in a self-destructive cycle and currently lacked the tools to stop it.” He advises writing down how we got in that cycle. That will be for another longer blog 😉 But essentially he says you are done with Step One once you are utterly convinced that that cycle can’t be broken by sheer willpower.

Child2 is at the gym tomorrow morning so i’m hoping to check in with my sponsor and redo Step One with her during that time.